I Saw Minecraft Creeper Today

He was...

Chimere effed him up HARD.

He was sitting funny and he looked like he was in a lot of pain. He also looked like someone had given him a black eye at some point, but according to Daniel, Chimere never punched him in the face. Maybe Slender distributes bitch slaps now, I don't know.

Anyway, I...is it weird that I actually felt terrible? I mean, yeah, I still hate him and think he's an asshole, but seeing him like that...

I just...I actually apologized to him after class.

I know, I'm stupid and soft, but I felt bad. He just...it was sad. And I felt terrible.

His response:

"Never, EVER apologize to me again, you little BITCH. Do you hear me?"

And then, as he started walking away:

"I would keep an eye on that alter ego of yours. She is no better than I am and you know it."

...What scares me is that he's probably right. I know she's on our side and all, but...

That was...that was just overkill. That wasn't necessary. If I had to hurt him I'd just take him out and get it over with. I wouldn't...that was inches away from torture. It's not right.

Daniel's still a little...out of it after everything that happened.

I wish there was something I could do.

~Alora

Hi

Guess we won, huh?

Two things to address.

One, I know what Daniel did, and I'm not mad at him. It...it was the right thing to do. I would be a mess right now if he hadn't done it. I do know the basics of what happened, but...I'm not sure I can handle details yet. Even with what little I do know, it's...hard to think about. Especially seeing how he's been handling it. I know later I'm going to have to know some of it, for his sake, because he needs to talk to SOMEone about it...but...I don't know. Not now.

I feel so selfish doing that, though.

Thanks for telling him that he did the right thing. I think it's helping, but he's still beating himself up about it. Also, Maze? Not cool. Just...not cool. You suck.

Two, I think I know who Chimere is and it freaks me the hell out.

See, when I was little, my mom used to tell me stories about a warrior princess named Chimere. You know, the sort of progressive fairy tale where the princess saves her damn self and all that? I dunno, I think she wanted me to realize that sometimes you've got to figure shit out yourself. Anyway, when I was a kid, whenever I would get freaked out about something (which happened a lot--I'm still socially awkward sometimes, but trust me, back then, I was a DISASTER around other people) I would just pretend I was Chimere. It was weird, but it helped me cope, and I was a kid. I stopped doing it after I was like...ten? Twelve? The point is, I haven't done it in years.

What scares me is that...

I really don't like talking about it, but...the time I developed nictophobia...

I was four. I was at my aunt's house. We were playing hide and seek. It was the evening. I, master of all things stupid, thought it would be a great idea to go hide in the woods.

I got lost.

I was out there all damn night, four years old, utterly terrified. Not to mention the fact that there are a LOT of critters out where my aunt lives (you know, raccoons and squirrels and shit), and when you're four and year some noctornal animal scurrying around, it might as well be the freaking devil trying to reap your soul. That's how bad it was.

I still get nightmares about it sometimes.

The last thing I remember was hiding in this little patch of bushes and crying.

Then I "woke up" back home. My family was there and everyone was freaking out. Apparently I'd just walked back to the house by myself, but to this day I don't remember ever leaving those bushes. I just was there, then I was home.

And...that's kind of what happened yesterday. I remember...vague stuff, I remember it was bad and I was terrified (all blurred, thanks to D) and next thing I know, I'm waking up this morning and everything looks...normal-ish. I say "normal-ish" because I haven't quite cleaned up all the bloodstains, I no longer have a mirror, and I'm down two shirts (I didn't like either of them anyway).

From what little internet research I've been able to do, this lapse in memory is sort of consistent with an alternate personality. Basically, my theory is that Chimere is this...alter-ego I made for myself that evolved into a split personality who takes over when things get too much for me (oddly enough, I am...strangely proud that this has only happened twice in my life. I guess I'm more resilient than I thought). The fact that I used to pretend I was her is probably part of the reason she considers herself "Me-But-Not", because...well, that's what she is.

I'm grateful she popped up when she did, but...I'm not sure I like her so much.

I mean, for Heaven's sake, she stabbed MC! Stabbed him. Repeatedly. I might rant about how I'm going to kill the guy, and I might hurt someone in self-defense, but...not like that. Never like that. One of my towels is ruined because of all the blood. I wouldn't just...I wouldn't do that. No. Never.

But she did, and the fact that a person capable of that is lurking in my brain really freaks me the hell out.

I don't want to be her again. I just...want to stay me. I want control of my own brain and my own actions.

Daniel doesn't like her too much either. He says she's kinda scary. Great. I have a psycho in my head.

I haven't read any of the old blog posts (not sure I want to yet), but if she posted anything, did she seem crazy to you guys? At all? Just wondering...

I talked to Vivi.

I'm...not sure why I did that.

But...it's good to see they're still safe.

Stay safe, you guys.

~Alora

i...i...

i just...

what he did...

i don't...




i don't...i can't talk about it right now.



i passed out at some point and when i woke up...alora was there but it wasn't alora. it was...someone else inside alora, i don't know. she said her name was chimere and she tried to explain it to me, but my head hurt, so i wasn't really registering what was going on.

she doesn't act like alora at all. it's...i don't even know how to feel.

but...she told me...

she told me there was something i needed to do to help alora. she said i needed to make her forget. i needed to make her forget what had happened today, or most of what happened this week if i could.

i told her no. i told her that i didn't know if i could do that and even if i could i wasn't going to. i wasn't going to invade her like that, i wasn't going...

and she told me...she said, "daniel, do you know what's going to happen to her if you just let her stay like this? i'm not going to stay here forever, and when she wakes up, she is going to be a mess. do you know what she's been through? at least you have your bullshit mind powers. you could fight back. she couldn't fight back. he violated her and she was defenseless. she's going to wake up and remember everything, and that will drive her insane. she might never recover. i know that if you could make yourself forget everything that happened this week, everything you did, and everything he did to you, you'd do it. it's a thousand times worse for her. if you don't try, then she will go through hell. do you understand? you have to try."



...she was right.

so i...

i'm able to...

she...







i couldn't make the memories go away entirely, but specifics are gone...it'll just be a blur of awfulness, everything that happened today, the woods, some of the stuff that happened since last sunday...it's just smudged, she'll know what happened was terrible, but she won't be able to remember exactly what happened...




i just went inside her mind like that...uninvited...messing with her memories like that...














tell me i did the right thing.

please, tell me i did the right thing...

Reassurance

I'm sure you're full of questions, so I'm just going to answer them right now.

1. No this is not Alora. Technically.

2. No, I do not aim to hurt her or Daniel. I'm here to protect her, and by extension Daniel, because we like him and it would be bad if he died.

3. Don't worry, I won't be sticking around very long. You'll have Alora back soon. I'm going to try not to make this a regular thing. But with this whole Slender Man bullshit, you'll be seeing me again.

And the big question I'm sure you're all asking is: what the hell happened?

Well, I don't really know what happened at first, but I do know this: Slender Man woke me up.

Last time I surfaced, she was like...what, four? It was when she developed her nictophobia. I'm the only reason she got out of those woods. She never really needed me after that. Well, until today.

I get why Slender Man is known as a Mmemetic Molestor. He doesn't do anything physical. It's all in the head. He's a mind rapist, that's what he is. He violated her. So I woke up. He wasn't expecting that, so he let go. I only confused him for a few seconds, though. After that, I think he was...interested.

Then I stabbed Lucien. Several times.

I know, right? And it felt freaking good. Who's the bitch now, huh? Son of a whore...

And I guess Reach was right about Renevants being bullshit, because he didn't heal at all. He seemed pretty shocked by this. Slender Man didn't care that I'd just beat up one of his minions, though. He...

He laughed.

I hope none of you never have to hear that sound, because it is freaking me out just thinking about it. It was this...chuckle, this low, deep chuckle. And it wasn't audible, it's in your head, it's...

Ugh.

Anyway, so I don't really know what I did, but he just picked up Lucien and left. I don't know if he just randomly decided we passed his trials or what that laugh meant but I'm not complaining.

Anyway, Daniel's kind of passed out after the physical abuse and the mind rape, so he's down for the count. I'm finally done patching up him and us. I had to tear up some of our shirts. I hope Alora's not too pissed.

Daniel will probably be fine after some rest, and Alora's basically okay, physically, but when I leave...

She's...not going to be okay, is she?

F*ck.

Going to have to do something about that.

Well, there is one thing I can do, but he's not going to like it. Whatever, I'll talk to him about it later.

I'm going to be sticking around until Daniel wakes up. Someone has to get all the blood off the floor.

Don't worry, they're both safe with me.

~Chimere